The Apologist's Evening Prayer

From all my lame defeats and oh! much more
From all the victories that I seemed to score;
From cleverness shot forth on Thy behalf
At which, while angels weep, the audience laugh;
From all my proofs of Thy divinity,
Thou, who wouldst give no sign, deliver me.

Thoughts are but Coins.  Let me not trust, instead
of Thee, their thin-worn image of Thy head.
From all my thoughts, even from my thoughts of Thee,
O thou fair Silence, fall, and set me free.
Lord of the narrow gate and the needle's eye,
Take from me all my trumpery lest I die.

 This is a poem, called The Apologist's Prayer, that is written by C.S Lewis.  The word Apologist refers to the term Apologetics.  Apologetics is Greek and means  "speaking in defense".  Apologetics is commonly used by Christians to defend their faith in Christ Jesus.  When C.S Lewis wrote the poem as a "Prayer" of an apologist, he was trying to explain how its an apologists job to defend their faith in Jesus, not to argue with someone to prove that they are right and the other is wrong.  We should not count it as a victory when we can prove that we are right and someone else is wrong, but rather to be glad that we know what we believe and why we believe it.